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Friday nights?

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There are many things one would do on a Friday night like tonight…OR NOT!! It’s Friday the 13th everyone! In the swimmer world, it’s bad bad baaad…. On another note, so many things are going around all around the world:

  • Earthquake and upcoming tsunami in Japan, 18k people dead/missing
  • ISIS attack in Lebanon
  • Hurricanes in Mexico
  • Terrorist attacks in Paris
  • And the media believe that there is no future hope for cable T.V… which is fine for me though cause I don’t have cable T.V anyway…

Luke 21:25-26 ESV

“And there will be signs in sun and moon and stars, and on the earth distress of nations in perplexity because of the roaring of the sea and the waves, people fainting with fear and with foreboding of what is coming on the world. For the powers of the heavens will be shaken.”

It is time, no… it is waaaay past time to git good with the Lord! Start now! Why don’t we spend this night in prayer for Paris and for God’s plan to be fulfilled in our lives. Be a blessing! Kthanksbye!

and they called it…Puppy love :)

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What do you call it when you begin to imagine scenarios of yourself and another person going on romantic adventures? Dang it… I try to guard my heart but should I gouge out my eyeballs as well? Does this mean Im not spending enough time with the Lord? WHY AM I FEELING THINGS? I don’t like this. It’s not okay!

So, background story, I’ve had the biggest and longest crush on one of the coolest guys on the planet (2nd of course to my father). His name is Ceejay. No worries, he knows I love him. I think anyone who’s known me since I could speak knows this fact. I base any of my real life crushes off of him. If they don’t showcase any of even just 3 of his many Godly and inspiring qualities (which I will not mention to keep my current crush a hush hush), then it’s an automatic no.  yes, I will obviously admire the appearances of some people but here this! MAN LOOKS TO THE OUTWARD APPEARANCE BUT GOD LOOKS TOWARD THE HEART! It’s the inside that matters amaright?? Can I get an amen?

SO THEN if you haven’t guessed, I had recently met someone who evidently acquire these specific attributes and my mind is spinning! My heart is pounding! My knees are shaking! And dear Angel Gabriel is that you lifting me off my feet or is it that smile of his? i feel my pupils turn into tiny hearts… this is crazy…or is it just me?

did i mention his killer smile?

DISCLAIMER: lol. no worries, Jesus is my numba 1 and i thank Him for creating maybe a picture of what He may give me in the future? i guess? bwahahahaha!!

What am I doing here?

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It’s so funny because i should be worried and crying or something. But I feel so calm, it’s actually scary. Its this weird sense of hope that I have that kind of just assures me that everything will be fine. With all that’s going on, especially with the whole college thing, why haven’t i given up yet? There’s absolutely NO WAY my parents can even afford to LIVE in america let alone, have me study here. College in America is so expensive!

and yet… I’m still here. Of course thanks to my sponsors (God bless them). However, it seems as though it’s not enough for me to be able to attend a full 4yr university. I’m not degrading community colleges or anything, it’s just that, i was kind of excited for the whole dorm-life thing. Honestly, before arriving to America, i thought i had the whole thing done. I was so sure it was God’s plan for me SO SO SO SURE! but in the middle of everything, the WHOLE PLAN CHANGES and i’m left without a college.

It’s almost Christmas and i could go home if i wanted to at any given time. it’s a weird God thing, but i feel like He is… and i absolutely HATE basing my decisions on how i feel, but it’s like I’m supposed to be here. Im not sure why or what for, but i am sure that it’s here… What am I doing here?

lol first post

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do you ever wonder what life would be like if you had chosen another path? like, I dunno, sometimes i think of what life would have been like had I decided to stay with my parents and go to a local university instead of traveling half-way around the world. well for one thing, I would be with my parents and my siblings and I would never miss my family and I get to have those long intellectual conversations with my dad and talk about old music from the 1970’s with my mom and make fun of 5th harmony and ariana grande with my sister and wrestle with my brother and and eat fried fish and bagoong (its a filipino thing look it up) every day.

Then again, I wouldn’t have met the amazing people from the past summer. The experiences are priceless. I absolutely love the family i’m staying with they’re kind of really awesome x 10. The kids i’m nannying for until school starts are really fun to be around although it gets tiring being around people all the time. Eventually, i’d like to venture into the town and sort of walk around. I wish i had a bike or my skateboard so i wouldn’t have to. In the states, i guess, you still need like a working permit or something even just to volunteer somewhere (or maybe it was just at that one store).

Well, although i miss home (and i’ll be missing hom for forever thank you very much), and my friends and family (special mention to skype and oovoo for being there for me), I’m really enjoying it here in New Mexico. I look hispanic so people speak like spanish to me and stuff and then there’s the occasional immigration scare cause i look like i’m an illegal immigrant or someting WHICH I AM NOT!! also, my first arival in the united states of america wasnt the most pleasant either. I have that short loudmouthed customs officer scumbag jerk at JFK airport, NY to blame.

Anyway, there really is not point to this. But i’m trying it out. see how this goes. okie dokie!